23 Nov 2012
Dealing with Anxiety ♥
Happy Friday everyone!
I apologise for not posting in a while; I've been going through a difficult patch with my anxieties and have recently started a new type of medication. I've never really spoken out about my problems online but want to help raise awareness.
Recently it's been growing ever more difficult for me to attend college and study for my January exams, so I've decided to re-sit Year 13 next year. It's a difficult decision but will enable me to try and face my fears at my own pace, without getting overly stressed about exams. I'm also trying to find a medication that will help me with this process, as at the moment I'm finding it near impossible to challenge myself at all.
My fears will probably seem very silly to a lot of people, such is anxiety. It's usually irrational and often people don't understand why I feel scared, because there's actually nothing there to be scared about. To me, though, it feels very real and life is very hard to handle a lot of the time.
Depression and anxiety typically run in my family; my grandma and my mum have bad depression and my uncle suffers from bipolar. My main fears are being away from home, people going missing, and generally being convinced that something bad will happen. I also feel physically unwell with it sometimes, a common symptom of depression. In the past I've experienced disorders such as OCD, Social Anxiety and Body Dysmorphic Disorder.
Despite this, most often I have a positive outlook for the future. Although my fears seem very real and that any moment something awful could happen, I'm believing more and more that I can cope. I have a list of things I'd love to do in the future and am trying to view it in a more positive light, rather than heading in to the unknown. I'd love to go to Uni after Year 13! I found talking to people helped me a lot, especially receiving support on the Childline message boards from people suffering from the same thing. I do believe it can be overcome! :)
I'm postponing my art for a while until I feel a little better but will keep posting! Thanks so much for reading! :D x
*Picture credit WeHeartIt
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